So I took sometime to find myself. Did a little research to find out who and what I am in this community. Thanks to some of you on here and others from other LJ communities, I had a plethera of links for research.
I was going to post this sooner but I got busy with work and spent some time with friends, whom I would love to tell this to, but I think they would look at me and be like 'You've read too many werewolf books girl.' LoL When I'm ready I will tell them. Now while I was out with them one night, we go ghost hunting, we were at a park, sadly as a sensitive I didn't pick up on any spirits, BUT I had an awakening of sorts! See even after I did all my research I felt there was something missing that maybe I'm just someone who really loves wolves and dreams of being one. So I'm out in the park, it's really late, we pass the botanic gardens, I'm talkin to my friend and I hear something like an animal, I tilt my head to better listen and she's like 'what is it' I shrug my shoulder and keep walking all the while I hear a little animal scurring about, the crunching of their shoes seems louder. I can smell things like food from the near by apartments, the freshly cut grass and a squirrel. I get home and I'm tryin to figure this out. I'm rackin my brain tryin to figure out what happened and it comes to me, I had a mental shift! I practicaly danced around my room! I wanted to call someone, anyone but sadly they'd think I was crazy. Yeah, like I was gonna tell them that when I was going through the long stretch of tree and they thought I had a feeling, I was really hunting that squirrel, not cool. Haha don't think so LoL. *sighs* I need some therian friends.
Now I can tell when I have a mental shift because my personality seems different, I'm a lot edgier and I feel I have more courage when I tap into my animal side. I'm a very friendly person and can be a little too nice sometimes. Most of the time lately since I've really come to terms with it and now I understand it more I'm starting to notice stuff about my personality and some of my actions that I do and it all makes sense to me. *Howls*
Kamali is my nickname, at least my online nickname but if you would prefer to address me as Niki that is fine too. Again thank you for your help in my journey!
- Current Mood: rejuvenated